as strong as you

you know you're fine when you can still put mascara on
and when
even being sick doesn't hold you back from wondering how your ass looks in those jeans.

the sad melting snow on the grass is patchy
just like our relationship was
-always had some holes in it
(we didn't realize it then but we know it now)

please forgive me for fooling you, i never asked you to believe me
and i never told you to fall in love with me and to stare into my eyes the only way someone like you could
but
despite all we've been through
when i held you in my arms i wasn't kidding
so never doubt that, if anything.

everyone asks me if i'm alright and the only thing i can tell them is that
i'm still alive, i'm not dead or dying, i'm still alive

and i'll be as strong as you.